September 10, 2010

• Did Not Realize It had Been So Long

  So I submit a new weblog for your perusal.
  
  I have photos and a little to report.
  
  For reasons I cannot put my finger on I have been feeling anxious. Not depressed…this too shall pass.
  
  I have had the place to myself for nearly two weeks. I really enjoy the quiet but if you know me, that is not the usual. Maybe that is part of my dis-ease.
  
  My cafe job came to an end, my own undoing, I admit. But for some reason, I don’t feel bad. It has been an excuse to be lethargic and party too much. Not blaming, just making so many excuses to avoid getting down to any kind of business. Almost a relief, I just wish I would have been a better person about it. I feel as though I may have let some people down although I am sure I did not. Just remorse in not being the best I could be.
  
  Last weekend I was able to baby sit for my grand daughter Juniper all day on Saturday. I went up Friday for a show that Jocelyn was to perform in. That got canceled but we planned on my staying over at the other grand parent’s place and babysitting on Saturday. The change in plans allowed me to hang out and help my daughter on Friday night (dinner and talking) so I stayed at her place (on the floor! I am too old for THAT these days!) and stayed for the day to baby sit Juniper.
  
  Wonderful day.
  
  
  I was there when she woke up first thing! Good morning BEAN!
  
  I have not really been around babies since my own children were babies. I have never been a baby person, I am more of a stinky teenager person.  So, it has taken these past four months for me to build up my confidence to feel  able enough to take over for the day.
  
  And it all went great! I did not break her, or scuff her up. I did not feed her chocolate milk by accident or give her chicken nuggets for lunch. I am pretty sure I did not scar her for life. So far, Jocelyn has not fired me!
  
  
  She is starting to turn on her side and begin to roll over.
  
  She loves her toys now. She has favorite ones! I have never seen a baby think as hard as she does. And not just for pooping. Seriously.
  
  
  
  She enjoys her jumpy chair dealy up to a point. (dealy is a latin  jumpy toy adjective, don’t be smug!)
  
  
  
  She gets some air but likes most to turn it so it will spin her back around. She prefers to have a couple of toys join her for the ride. (There we have Red Pony and Noisy Bee)
  
  Jocelyn and Daniel came home and I stayed just a while longer. She sat up on her own for the first time while I was there!
  
  
  
  She has been able to pull herself up to standing with her Daddy’s help.  LOOK! Juniper is attacking TOWNSVILLE!
  
  
  
  I am hoping to baby sit this weekend too. I am waiting for THAT phone call.
  
  I have a room renter for the end of the month. We will see how that works out. Fortunately it is a person I know so perhaps that will make for better relations. I already know that he is VERY tidy. Huge relief. We all know I am not talking about my son, don’t we? He is suppose to be moving out but room renter has been made aware that he may end up on my couch. Nevertheless, I will enjoy my empty house to myself while I should
  
  So, the day that the cafe job ended a new job became available. Just like that. I started Tuesday this week, after the holiday. It is part time and temp. It will really help out. It is once again, in the mortgage business, my old boss from here in Davis, as a matter of fact.
  
  
  
  The week went well. I suspect I will stay on as long as he has the business. Much more relaxed than before but that short gig at the mortgage banking funding department last year actually brought me up to speed on the industry changes. There is always important caveats for each lender but still, working at a bank for awhile certainly heightens your awareness of the important p’s and q’s. (as in pints and quarts, math is so important where ever your path leads you, never forget that…) I hope the job lasts for a long while. It feels good to feel like I know what I am doing again. And I always like this man and his family.

  
  
  Autumn in Davis by timpossible

  It feels like the autumn may be just around the corner. I am ready although our summer was pretty mild by all accounts. Perhaps the slight change in weather is why I am so anxious. That and just being a peri-menopausal old lady !
  
  Speaking of being an old lady…
    
  
  I have always claimed that I would NEVER have a mid life crisis.
  
  I lied.
  
  I have my heart set on buying this cute little number. It is a Yamaha Vino that some housekeeping clients are selling and are willing to take payments on. I missed out on tooling around these mean streets of Davis this year, but DOG AS MY WITNESS! I will be driving on the sidewalks by next spring.

  I really feel like this is a Friday for the first time in a long time. TGIF!

  And my, where our world has gone since 9/11/2001?  My world is filled with more love but our collective seems to be filled with more hate. Prove me wrong.

  
  
  Photo by Kaitlyn Weber

  “Christ have mercy on all sleeping things! From that dog rotting down on Wrightson Road to when I was a dog on these streets…I have Dutch, nigger and English in me, I’m either nobody, or I’m a nation” Derek Walcott

  
  
  
  
  

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